this.is.wen.my.mouth.is.open.and.cant.close.!!!lolx.

bored.bored.bored and bored! i have to study for pmr though. Gawd!its such a pain in the ass. and i take me words back about deepy back in my life again. it was all jus fake. cant believe i fell in that trap again! maybe itsw because i trust her so much dat until watever shit they put me through i would still fall for it. am i dat dumb? well watever it is. i am gonna show them dat i am intelligent and much more smarter then them. so i'll get of my blood A's and get out from this horrible school. and when i become a successful person, i'll sit on my chair thinking that they should have excepted me there and then itself. but too bat.. its tooo late. lol. i have evrything i ever wanted... so screw 'em. lol!thats all for now. i am lazy to write about the whole day crap.llx!ciaow nigga's!

Ma Babe. she's back. owh yea! thats life is back.

uh, huh. uh, huh. she's back alright. deepy i love ya honeyy. i jus wanna say i am sorry for possibly everything i said and did in out 'entire' life of friendship.lol. i am also in lost of words. i don't know Wat to say. but all i know is... ''shit!shit!shit! i finally got you." i got yea. i got ya. ouh yea. deepy iiiiiiiiiiii LooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvE ya. damn babe i miss ya so much. the pushing. the laughing. the earring. the everything...... i love you hun. dont leave me stranded here alone again. please. i almost died without YOU, i mean apart of me did die. cause that part had you in it. and wen you walked out of my life i didn't feel like i have a life anymore. i missed the moveis. disturbing 'face. disturbing mummy. ouh yea and badminton too. but now dat your back all i gotta say is I f-ING love ya FATT---------------YYYYYYYY. MWAKKS!

exhausting day.

today was totally exhausting. felt so bloody tired.daymm. but i got to do the things i love too. started the day by going swimming with Julie(my cousin).. we were in de water for quite some time. i tried to learn how to swim. but still not that good. if i know how to swim then my back bone will be corrected by then.lol.by 11 mum called Julie and me out. she was afraid dat we would get sick if we take a long time in de pool. i had fun though. i mean in de pool!after dat we had our lunch. it was so spicy. everything was spicy.but nice.:) den mum wanted to wash her hair in de saloon. while she was there, Julie and i went to de S.P.C.A. omg my Gawd! the dogs and puppies were so cute. i didn't want to come back. but it was scary too cause there were so many dogs which were untied.i thought of adopting one. but i cant cause mum will scold. my heart was cryin already wen i left the place. but the lady who was working there gave me some brochures to see. and if i wanted to volunteer i could call her. i am so not gonna throw de brochure away.lol. i miss de black dog.:(:(:( after de S.P.C.A. wen took de boys out for lunch after their futsal game. de rest of the day wen of so "boringly"... LOL.

the fight between the blood-sisters!

the blood sisters. tuesday it was there niky was sitting with me, i confronted her about wat amaardeep had said about me to mishelle ita. instead of just saying yes it is true and talkin to me nicely about it she screamed at me , i told her to just stop there, wen vanisha and julia came and also sharmilla. they came askin why wat happen i was in tears of the way niky had spoke to me. i felt so horrible.. she made me feel as if i wasn't human. i jus kept quiet. den after a few minutes i told dem. the reason was because they think i've been conquering their so called life. and making the choices for them. i was dat person last years but not now. its been only 3 weeks of skool and they say i am acting so bad? omg! for what i know i am not de person i was last year. my new years resolution was to be friends with everyone i ever hated. is dat wrong? is dat one of the reasons you would fight with your friends? omgg!! gGod told us to have no enemies i mean our religion and its not like w're not from de same religion. goodness gracioes.! the next day arlene came screaming at me cause i was mixing with the girls too much wen the girls came to where we were standing she stop the whole story about vanisha and the 2 girls and started about sanjay saying all kinda crap i jus kept quiet annd listened to what she had to say. the she jus walked off. now i am alone. i come down for recess alone. i walk back alone. no frens no nothings. i rather be in a skoooool where i dont know anyone and still be alone rather than being everyone around you but still be alone. i dont know what i've done. i jus wanna study
coming back home nowdays instead of being in skool with everyone "i so called know".. i jus miss dem. and if someo ne is actually reading this remember to give your frineds wathever they want even thought they backsatbb you and you feel like there is aknife piercing right throught your hert. love them for who they are and one day they come crawling. i know my frens will be sorry for how they have abandonned me. and leaving me strandded all alon. love you guys. and i know you still have de heart for me. things wouldn't be the same without me and you guys dont like 'different'...

ouch!! is it gona hurt?

todayy is de day!! today is de goddamn day!! its de day i am gonna fix my braces. ouch is it gonna hurt?? i've been asking maself dat for a while now i still dont know de answer till i go through it. i am scared!!lol.hmm.. its 12.30 all ready. omg! mum's gonna be here anytime. and she is. shyte!lol!! okay we leave de house. and its 1.00. 1.30 is my appoiment! its me first. not devan!! omgG! cant he go first?? 1.30 nurse calls my name. omg! i pull mummy's hand. she drags devan along with us!! de doctor shows us our awful teeth. lol. den i told de doc can my bro go first? and yes he does!! hahah. he says it hurts a lot
. den dey call my name. omgg! i am gonna scream. is it gonna hurt? is it true wat devan said?? doctor starts cleaning my mouth. it doesn't hurt at all! damn devan! erhh.. after he put de braces, de put pink colour on it!! after dats de day went on as a normal day. kinda hard to eat but i gotta get use to it aren't i? at 9.30 was our b.e.c meeting everyone said my teeth was nice!! yay! its hard to brush though!! but i'll get use to it!

so bloody borin day! i need a suite to rest in.lol

hmm...wat am i to say? got up about 9 sumtin. damn i was tired. i slept at 1 am last nite. writtin sum crap!!lol. at 11.30 uncle came to pick me up for tuition and dats wen he realised dat he doesn't have any petrol to keep de car movin, so we took a big round. wen through "car-junk" and everywhere else.den we finally found a shell station. afta dat we wen to shangheeta's house for tuition! dey we terrified wen dey saw my hair juz because i got it coloured.lolx.sanjiyven kept on disturbin me, as usual. dats his so called "thing".. later den he took my phone and looked through my contacts he saw tiana's name and kept onbuggin me and askin me if i could take it. i sed no cause if he texted her i'll be screwed, tiana ain't dat type of girl whose into boys and stuff.so i told him no no and no!! afta dat class endded. i quickly ran to de car. GOSH, why are boys so obsessed with girls?dats why i hate dem.eww.wen i came back home devan was still using de computer even thought i kept on shoutin at him tellin him dat i have to use de comp.you know de usual 'brothers' lol. anyway afta he used it i went upstairs dats wen jeevan came home.
i feel lyke screamin. why does mum and dad have to make so many babies?(: neway he used it for about half an hour and now its finally mine!!!yay.yay.(:lol. de rest of de day was borin hopefully i can go out with mum tomoro. get my first nose piercin.ouch!! buh bye.lol.

todayy was damn borin even though it havenn't end yet. but dat de way it is. i'll be leavin for pdl later cant wait to go.lol. cos i'll be away from everyone i know. dats good ain't it? i hope i'll really be a changed person wen i come back. maybe moore hotter, moore smarter, more sexier. lol. i'll pray for dat to come true larr. i need to start havin fun. and need to live lyke a girl who is so sophisticated to everyone. i am gonna amaze everyone. dey think i am lame now. dey think i am dumb now. and dey think i am juz a piece of rubbish who get dumb's by everyone. well dey better think again cos dey gotta see me afta dis. de they'll know me .. and they'll be sorry for wat dey've said. jus dont steal my identity. and fuck off. hope i have fun der. lol. i wil i will. dats all. i'll be abck afta 5 days. so dont wait up!lolx.